Currently Listening Gymnasia By The Show Is the Rainbow "Alls Well Blah Blah Blah" see related

Meh.

I don't really know what I'm feeling right now except that the things I love seem just out of reach.  I wonder if I really have any value to anyone.  Cause second best means getting left behind.

I wish relationships didn't have to be hypersexual first and meaningful later.  I'm not really good at wanting people that way.  I don't really wanna go to bed alone anymore either.  Kinda just want to know someone's there.

I miss being welcomed.  I try to be welcoming to everyone else.

I hate doing things for people knowing they would never do the same for me.  Stupid little things.

I don't know.  I don't know what to do or who to be to make people love me more.

When I invest time into a person it's because I like them and hope they're not gonna leave me.

Lately though I just feel like I'm gonna get left.